Riding a motorcycle through a wormhole in inner-space.


Social Media Anxiety

I just had an argument on Facebook about something political. And got the old “So what you’re saying is…” response. After I realized that I was in a Facebook argument I stated it in my next reply, and said I was done.

Now I have anxiety going to bed thinking I’m gonna be doxxed and stuff I said being taken out of context to make me look bad. Jesus Christ, I know I’m not good at explaining things very well, but I didn’t say anything racist or anything related to hate speech…

For fuck sake, is this the world we live in now? Thought police? Should I just keep my thoughts to myself? Isn’t that wrong? What kind of world is this becoming? Do I have to stand on a podium and explain myself to everyone? Is my family going to be safe? Am I gonna get fired from my job because I had a sensible opinion?

After reading these questions I’ve asked, I just realized that this is indeed the new era of citizens drowning each other, and I need to watch myself. I also need to better prepare for arguments. Maybe quit social media and live in the boonies.

I’m not gonna sleep well tonight.

Nendoroid Mercy (Or Why I Want These “Toys”)

I’m a guy in his early 30’s who has collected his fair share of figures. I mean, just look at this…

This is is nothing compared to some people…

It had come to my attention that a certain toy company was making a line of Overwatch characters and one of them, Mercy, is among the line-up.

I am not a psychologist, but from what I’ve read (Carl Jung’s “Man And His Symbols”, and “Jung on the Active Imagination”) did I start realizing why I collect these things many people would regard as a waste of money.

The male characters have something I see in myself and utilize them in their own success. For example: Raphael is volatile, and Batman is grumpy and/or stoic. Star-Lord’s active ego/confidence is one that mine can aspire to.

Then there’s the females. These are anima who have characteristics I do not. Lara Croft is adventurous and conquers fear (especially of heights), and Mercy has a benevolence that’s literally painted angelic.

I could go on with all the figures I own, but you get the point.

I believe we collect these things because we’re scribes of these ideals that these characters represent. You can look at a person’s bookshelf or movie collection and get an idea of who they are.

The funny thing is I’ve almost stopped collecting these because I feel like I’ve “made my point” to myself. At first I thought it was because it didn’t make me happy anymore, but it never really did. Perhaps I was on a search of who I am. It’s easier to buy something that’s already made into something you like than it is to create something that represents you.

Now I’m using my strength to create things, and music will do for now, but I’m looking forward to other things that are already taking shape in my mind and on paper…

…but first I need-nay-WANT that Mercy figure.



It’s like “retrospect” but RAD!

Here’s a list of things that I’m grateful for that happened in 2017 (in no order):

  • The release of WAIFU, and tracks “Robots!”, and “85,15”.
  • Paid off my student loans after 9 years!
  • Made new friends in Toronto.
  • I was a groomsman at my buddy’s wedding.
  • Celebrated 25 years of friendship with my best friend.
  • I saw Bat Out Of Hell: The Musical with my best friend, and my lady.
  • Celebrated my 10th anniversary with my lady.


It was a damn good year for me, personally. 2018 will have less debt, and more love and creativity coming out of me. I’m also looking forward to getting RADUTRON on stage this year! Woo!

Ecce Tattoo

I had a dream last night that Jordan Peterson was having a contest that he would tattoo people who won. I won a spot and Peterson was to tattoo “Ecce Homo” (his choosing) on me but I declined because the design was so terrible.

New Track – Something for the…uh… imagination?

I cannot confirm nor deny the potentially revealing theme of this track. Ah hell, who am I kidding!?

Thought: Blade Runner 2049

Back in the early 2000’s I bought Blade Runner (The Director’s Cut) on DVD for $35, 6 months before my family owned a DVD-player. I would look at the case and read the chapter list, and stare at the artwork in anticipation. When I could finally watch it, I did in awe. I couldn’t fully understand the philosophical questions, but I knew it was something special, and I wished I could see it in theatres.

I just came out of “2049” and my wish came true. Beautiful movie, great music, and a worthy sequel that steps up the idea the first explores.

Thought: Vault-Boy and Real Life

I’m a big fan of the Fallout video-game franchise. I got a section of a shelf at home dedicated to bobble-heads, Pop Figures, collector editions, plushes and what not.

The main image of Fallout is the character Vault-Boy. The mascot of an insane corporation called Vault-Tec. His ominous smile plastered all over the post-nuclear wasteland of Fallout’s fictional universe.

Today I get an email from the Bethesda Store trying to sell me a t-shirt that says “War Never Changes” and with a graphic of an average man-looking Vault Boy seeing a nuclear bomb going off.

With potential war looming against North Korea and the U.S., I find this very fucking ironic.‬ I can’t buy this shit anymore.