Ever since being done with The Rabid Whole, I’ve had a long way of figuring out who I am, and accepting certain aspects. Sometime last fall I learned of an Ontario-based professor named Jordan B Petersen. I’ve watched countless bite-sized videos of his lectures, and was glad to listen to his (currently) two appearances on the Joe Rogan Experience podcast.
In those podcast episodes Petersen said that he’s heavily influenced by the works of Dr. Carl G. Jung, and philosopher Frederick Nietzche. I decided I had to start reading their works, and I just recently finished reading Jung’s book “Man and His Symbols” (also written by Jung’s associates who dive deeper and expand on Jung’s theology of dreams which are the focus of the book).
“Man and His Symbols” is most definitely one of the most important books I have ever read in my life! I encourage you to read this book and come to your own conclusions (it’s only $11 CAD).
I’m dreadfully sorry if higher intellectuals find this too simplified, or if I misinterpreted anything. Please leave a comment if I’m wrong about any of the following. Here’s the big takeaways:
- Our messages from God come in the form of symbols created by our subconscious in the way of dreams.
- We are all God, and can be in touch with Him (ourselves, or as Jung calls it the Self) if we learn to listen to our dreams and what they are telling us. Each object, person, and setting are unique to the dreamer.
- The rational mind has killed any appreciation and spiritual connection to one’s Self. In a world of materialism, I can’t agree more. It’s literally soul sucking.
- Dark imagery in dreams are reflections of the “shadow self”, a version of the subconscious that is trying to tell us something. Something that we can use to better ourselves, if we can just stop running away from it. This is true even if it breeds real criminals!
- People who project things onto other people are just reflecting their own issues or beliefs. I never really understood this as much as I do now.
Thinking of symbols I’ve thought about religion, mainly Christianity since that’s a mainstay story in North American culture. I’ve learned years ago that the Bible is nothing but just metaphors, but I never thought about WHAT they were of.
The greatest story ever told is probably the greatest dream ever conceived (the archetype of the hero’s journey). In that case, Jesus’ death and resurrection is a story of letting go of a version of yourself and becoming something new. This is a story everyone can understand and actually live by instead of thinking that Jesus/God is someone or a status they can never be.
Also, hell is probably just a personal one. The TV show “Preacher” does an interesting take on this idea as all prisoners of hell have to relive their worst memories over and over again.
Jung has a quote that says “Unless you make the subconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” This is to me is synonymous with “God has a plan”.
If people can unlock their true potential of being, I thought if good and evil really do exist or if its just a point of view. From what I gather I’ll get a better idea once I start reading Nietzche…
Even typing this now I think of some of the imagery I’ve seen while floating in a sensory deprivation tank, and the symbol I designed and got tattooed on my arm! Things I’ll need to ponder for sure. Hell, even that Guardians Of The Galaxy dream I had a couple of months ago. Are dreams our own verses and stories for our own personal bible? Man, oh man!
Anyways, I’m really interested in this kind of reverse engineering of myself, and after reading this book I feel like a real living being. My next sought after Jung book is “Jung and The Active Imagination” where Jung found himself depressed in a certain part of his life and looked to his childhood to find what it was that he was missing.
I really feel like I’m shedding a version of myself recently, and growing into something new. I realize my abilities for empathy and understanding, and it really rips the fear out of anything that I have. It’s also been fertilizer for ideas I have creatively that I just can’t wait to share with the world.
Dear reader, I urge you find the new religion. The religion of you.
Wanna see me playing guitar? SURE YOU DO!
Rockin’ to my track “Lara” (inspired by Lara Croft from Tomb Raider), with my sweet Kassandra.
My love letters in musical form to some of my favourite female characters in video games is now completed, and available to stream, or to purchase to download! I’m so very excited and I’m happy to share it with the world.
No jokes. I just had this dream and had to write this down at 5:30am!
The line between the Guardians characters and the cast was blurred. The lines between me being a fan, a cast member, and the character I was playing was blurred.
I went to the theater to watch the 2nd to 3rd act of the movie and it was pretty x-rated in the most comical way possible. I won’t go into details.
Anyway, next thing I know the cast are all jumping into an appointment they have for a photo shoot in the most epic way possible together. I’m a cast member (whoever I’m playing as) and I jump and glide along side Michael Rooker on a motorcycle who is on my right, and he turns and smiles with the friendliest *yeah, let’s go!* smile you can think up.
We’re all in a desert when this is happening and end up in the driveway of some Hollywood house for the photo shoot which is taking place on the roof of the garage (the edge of the garage and our backs facing the yard).
We all end up in poses like we’re playing Twister. Dave Bautista ends up with his butt in my face. I say: “Well, at least it’s not anything else…”. Everyone laughs. Particularly, Nebula (Karen Gillan is the only one in full make-up).
Next thing we know we get abducted and sent to some weird alien reality show where the premise is we are in cages and the galaxy (?) watches us slowly go crazy because rescue is near impossible. Nebula and I are looking at each other very worried and in tears.
She tells me she has a plan to get out, and not to worry anymore. The rest of the dream is me trying to escape with everyone (checking exits, talking with fellow Guardians/prisoners) as I check in with Nebula, whose plan was to slowly turn into a weeabo (an anime fan), and make vlogs. She has gone insane, and I’m as devastated as anyone with a messiah complex can be.
“Poor Nebb…What have they done?”
I wake up.
I was going through my notes on my iPhone and found the only journal entry I made at the start of our 5-week tour through Canada/U.S.. I thought it interesting. Enjoy.
“April 12, 2013
“If you want an illustrious career in rock n’ roll, I suggest you think about it…” Greg Dean (on the KMFDM Beat By Beat Tour 1995).
I just want to say about that quote above: Our trip is most likely not as crazy as some bands’, but touring in a band is not like a road trip with your friends or family, and it’s not really like camping except for some things you bring with you. We don’t have a crew, and playing is merely 10% of our job. The rest is lugging/hooking up our gear, driving long hours (and battling the elements), being paranoid about security, taking extra care in maintaining our health, and eating not as wholesome as we’d like.
Day 1 of the Short Circuit Tour (excluding the Toronto show, cause we didn’t actually leave until the following Thursday)..
Drive was alright. Chals got one of those fancy “GoPro” cameras to document our journey. I swear they use those in the Canada’s Worst Driver tv-show.
Anyways, the 8-hr drive seemed short. The quaint size of Sault Ste. Marie reminded me of certain areas of Regina, and Moose Jaw, SK. It’s bigger than I thought, since the last time we travelled through (at night) back in late-fall 2009.
We get to the venue ’round 5:45pm and eventually meet the promoter. Nice guy. Fed us, bought us drinks. As the night rolls along after soundcheck and we’re playing the “hurry up and wait” game, I’m starting to get super tired. I’ve been up since 4:30am and by 11pm I was ready to crash. I was given an energy drink and after finally playing I gained a second wind.
A nice couple invited us to their house to sleep and shower. I had especially taken advantage of the shower.
Unfortunately the crazy snow storm from southern Ontario had caught up with us, and the next morning had us a little weary. On our way out of the city, a snowy steep hill stopping us from progressing as we halted half way up, and causing us to “jack-knife” the trailer trying to back up DOWN the hill. Chals warned on-coming traffic, as us dudes pushed the fully packed heavy trailer SIDEWAYS to get straight, disconnect from the van, then swing around to aim down the hill, then painstakingly re-attach to the van without getting run over by our own trailer.
After finding an alternate route, we hit up Timmy’s and fill up on gas. Then it’s continuing on the seemingly perilous mid-April winter journey to Thunder Bay.
I hope there’s enough lightning in Thunder Bay to zap this snow into hell.”
I’m currently getting through writing the track “Piper” as I record it. It’s challenging my guitar playing in a way I never thought possible, and I’m not one to edit the crap out of my guitar lines like most pros do (literally cutting every note and align it with the rhythm). I just can’t be that obsessive with something like that. I’ve listened to too much classic rock lately that I’m much more comfortable with sticking with the best take. I either play it well or I delete it. There’s something more human about it to me, and I don’t have to answer to anyone about it. But, I must say I’m very happy with the direction the track is going (think rockabilly-punk-kinda).
There’s a quote that Walt Disney said, something like “Everyone needs deadlines”. It really puts the pressure on to complete any project. But I’m quite certain I’ll complete this one. I know this is all talk, but if the first two tracks are any indication of how good this record is gonna be…
I really feel like this music is really the start of something for me. A real way to project my imagination.
I’m very excited to get this finished and start my next record idea I got kicking around in my head.
I just recently finished Final Fantasy XV and I must say while I take issue with the way the story paces, and takes interesting turns at very odd times (which I blame on the choice of the publisher choosing to make the holes in the story DLC), this is one of the most beautiful games I have ever played.
The story is about a young prince named Noctis who is on his way with his best friends/bodyguards to meet his bride-to-be Lunafreya. Disaster strikes as his kingdom crumbles after he leaves, and his father dies protecting it. The only choice is to move forward and gain the strength of fallen king spirits who previously ruled the land, and also the support of celestial gods to help reclaim the throne Noctis is rightfully heir to.
The entire world is open to explore, save for a few roadblocks that open after story progressions, and each area is a seamless transition much like exploring any open world game. Except the world map here is much more epic to traverse with your party in a car, and it feels like a great road trip complete with pit stops, in-vehicle conversations, and beautiful vistas.This game is a love letter to fans of Final Fantasy, and the series itself. I couldn’t help but to think that the four main character’s haircuts were odes to characters of series past. The celestial gods (who are ‘summons’ from past games) are beautifully faithful to how they’ve looked previously, and most are massive! The ending of the story suggests The Knights Of The Round (found in FFVII) which I didn’t catch on until twelve, then a thirteenth strike is made on the antagonist.
The main selling point to this game for me was the brotherhood of the main characters, though a little too “bro”, there’s enough dynamic to the characters that it was believable, and I could relate to the ball-busting and teasing they would do to each other. Combine this with the car rides to new destinations, it made me yearn for epic road trips with friends.
The character Prompto, who is one of the four in the party you control, takes random pictures during each day, and you can save your favourites. There’s a certain part of the end of the main story that Noctis requests to take one photo with him to the final confrontation, and that photo is laying in the throne room, and the game uses it a certification of completion of the game. Something I thought was very touching.
Despite some plot issues (which I blame on being turned into DLC), this is an epic tale, and great modern RPG that I’m sure people will be remembering down the line. Especially long-time Final Fantasy lovers like me.
I haven’t been able to stop playing “Tearaway Unfolded” since I downloaded it from the PlayStation Network. It’s free this month for PS-Plus members.
At first glance, I thought this game was going to be a pretentious hipster-game, and with the term “crafting” put in a lot of big titles these days, I thought I would take a pass. Thankfully, it’s definitely not that and so much more!
It’s a platforming adventure game, where the entire world is made of construction paper folded and shaped into familiar things. The basis is that a hole has torn into the sky and ‘scraps’ have invaded infecting the world with dull newsprint. You play as ‘the messenger’ who is controlled by ‘YOU’, and you use your light to fix the world, make tribal people happy, and hypnotize and defeat scraps with the shine of your light.
Along the way you will meet characters what want things added to them, like a crown, moustache, or symbol to display.
You can take photos at anytime with your familiar selection of filters that you would see on any smartphone app. You can even do animated gifs.
Not to mention, you can use the PlayStation app on your phone as a second screen of sorts, take pictures from it, and it will upload to the game and texture the environment with that photo! This is great if you got a friend with you who will mess around with it as you play the game.
This is just the creative stuff!!!
The game-play alone is really fun, with stages that are game mechanic focused the more skills you learn. Some combine these skills with some neat results, or even just leave it open to you to decide how to approach it.
Also the use of the touch-pad on the PS4 controller has been implemented so well, I think this is the only game that ACTUALLY USES IT outside of just pressing the touch-pad button (at least in any other game I’ve played so far). It’s the primary button where in this game you draw, swipe, press, and flick. So good. So fun.
I don’t see anything wrong in this game that no player would like. You have be a person with no imagination, and a real square to not enjoy this game at all. I haven’t finished the game yet, but I recommend it to any PS4 player.
Is this a review? It is now. 5 cowboy hats out of 5 cowboy hats. Now I’m gonna go and draw a cowboy hat and put it on my messenger…
P.S. When you meet the Gopher who asks you to give him a new look, he’ll ask you to carry him along to his house for a prize at the end of each journey. So far I’ve been unsuccessful as each time I’ve met him he’s fallen to certain doom. I named him Horny Gopher (though his horns look like a moustache where I placed them).
WAIFU is well under underway, and I’ve finished a new track. An ode to Chun-Li from Street Fighter! You can download it here!
Way back in 2014 my old bass player and I were putting up posters along Queen for what would be our final show in Toronto, and he mentioned Iceman. The next week I checked it out and was delighted to see the amount of retro video games that were available for reasonable prices.
After a couple of friends bought a Retron 5, I too bought one, but wanted to get it at Iceman. This kick-started my collection of games from my youth that I rented but never owned. I even bought games I always wanted to try as a kid! I even saw my brother’s fav game for N64 called “Mystical Ninja” and I bought it, a used N64, and Starfox 64, so he could experience it again. My nephew even got to experience it as well.
Your trading policy pleased me, as you guys gave a fair trade value for store credit, and never made me feel I was an idiot for bringing them in.
Despite my pre-order of Mass Effect: Andromeda coming out after you close, I was told that you guys would mail my copy to me when it came in. This is great news!
Anyways, terrible to see you guys go, and I hope your employees find a new jobs promptly. It’s going to be hard to find another retro game store that I will bother to make the 45min-1hr trip for again.
Best of luck to everyone! 😀
I just finished Rise Of The Tomb Raider, and it was phenomenal! It reminded me why I fell in love with action adventure games (i.e. the original Tomb Raider, sorry Uncharted!). Here’s a bunch of great moments in the game I had to capture on the PS4. This game never ran out of great vistas, and environments until the game was finished. I unlocked the retro Lara skins at the end, and I got a huge kick out of it. Love love love.
With that, I’m excited to get my track “Lara” done for my record Waifu. I’ve posted the track “Jack” already and is on my YouTube channel, and Soundcloud.
A couple of years ago when it was announced The Mars One Project
was taking applications to go to Mars in 2023(?), I was considering getting into shape and applying.
I mentioned this to a close friend, my lady, and my mom, and all them responded with varying degrees of puzzlement. Reactions ranging from “Huh?” to “Do you want to leave me behind?”.
My thoughts were I could have a chance to be apart of something epic even if something could go wrong. I was born too late to explore the Earth, and too early to explore the Galaxy.
Anyways, I’m not going now.
Recently I’ve been watching Discovery News’ YouTube channel, and they did a piece on the whole traveling to Mars thing: “Basically you’re going there to die” (Something along those lines).
My lady hears this, leans into the living room and says, “And you wanted to go to Mars…”
A had a big grin on my face. Not because I was a fool to think it could happen, but because I’m one of the few people on this planet who had “And you wanted to go to Mars…” said to them.
*laugh track *
Some might call this a humble-brag, but whatever…
I posted the song “Jack” and tagged her character’s voice actor on Twitter. I did this because I appreciate her work and wanted to show her that. Social media is great for getting in contact with these performers no matter how casual it may be.
Anyways, she responded and it’s bloody f’n cool, man!
I don’t know if she actually likes the track, but at least she appreciates it.
I’ll be doing the same with the other tracks once they’re finished, posting the complete album on bandcamp/soundcloud/YouTube.
I don’t expect acknowledgement but it sure is a hoot and a holler when it happens.
Here’s the first track, from the upcoming record, WAIFU. Inspired by the character Jack from the video game series Mass Effect.
Jack satisfied my messiah-complex in the game. Plus, she’s just beautiful with that shaved skull, and omega tattoo.
Once upon a time my brother was a huge fan of KoRn, and consumed everything they were associated with. This included your album Commencement after listening to the Family Values Tour cd. I heard every frequency of your album at the opposite end of the house that slowly got me hooked.
As I listened to Commencement I found myself using the adolescent years of the internet to get to know who Deadsy was (interviews, Deadsy Legion forum, etc.) and anticipating when the next album would be finished. I remember listening to clips leaked through Kazaa/Morpheus, and one stood out to me: “Dreamcrusher”. I still remember half of the lyrics to the clip despite not hearing it for many years:
“Oh, the misty highs we climb/A search through fear-the skies/These sudden facts can make you hollow.
When checked this life derived from barren scapes behind/where we supposedly hide/In a place to waste/A place to wallow…”
In 12th grade, I wrote a play for English class called “Dreamcrusher”, as a final assignment. It was crappy.
Eventually Phantasmagore was officially announced and I pre-ordered the album online with the promise I’d get a signed copy. I got my copy with an apology letter saying that additional signed album inserts would be mailed at a later date (and they were!).
Then I never heard anything from you guys again. I would catch “Razor Love” (I think) on some stupid MTV show at the end credits, which to me was an obscure find if someone was listening close enough.
Years pass, and I slowly but surely shake my teenage obsessions. Now being interested in music from before my time, I’ve found familiarity of your music in artists like Tom Petty, and Gary Numan. I’m now 31, and after getting into a different (positive) mind set in my life (one of philosophy, some spirituality, and maybe some revelations of what life is), I was drawn to listen to Commencement whole again.
This album still holds up, and captures my imagination. Call me crazy but I can hear the colours you guys played on that album. “Mansion World”, and “Seagulls” are my top choices on that album, especially the latter.
Thanks for your music, and I hope that everyone has found happiness in their future years.
I am legion.
I just recently finished “Tales From The Borderlands”. I have to say it was phenomenal!
I’ve played through “Back To The Future”, both “Walking Dead” seasons, and “The Wolf Among Us”, and love all of them. But it was this title that cemented why I love good story in video games.
I’m 31, and have been gaming since I was 5. Except back then I thought shows like “Law And Order” we’re terribly boring. The script has been flipped now and I truly prefer a great story –and even better– a “choose-your-own-context” in video games.
I’ve played through the first “Borderlands” titles, and I love how you captured the humour, the lore, and the style of it. Even the flux between humour and drama was perfect! It had me guessing the whole time until the end! I thought Felix was the mysterious guy with the shotgun. Wrong!
Anyways, keep on doing a great job. Looking forward to picking up “Batman” on PS4 next month.
• The “will they or won’t they” with Rhys and Sascha.
• Loader Bot and Gortys
• Sascha’s gift
• The Power Rangers reference
• Pretty much everything in Episode 4 and 5
• The music intros to each episode!!!
I recently saw “Wasteland: A Post-Apocalyptic Romp” at Toronto’s Fringe Festival.
Other than “The Book Of Mormon” I haven’t seen a play probably since I was in elementary school. As a teenager I probably wouldn’t have cared to see it.
I fucking loved this play.
Coming in I was expecting more of a set, but it didn’t take me long to get used to seeing the actors use themselves and the same objects, and have my imagination amp it up! The music was a great touch, as I’m a fan of the modern Fallout games, and Guardians Of The Galaxy, where the upbeat music has stark contrast to the grim reality.
I laughed, I cried (tears of joy, especially when you get to “Under Pressure”), and I was overjoyed that I can love my favourite sci-fi genre in a different medium from movies, books, and video games. I just wish I could buy a recording of this!
Your play taught me that we’re all a little crazy in our own way, and our imaginations can make even the darkest realities more fun to play in.
-Changing perspectives of the vehicle battle scene
-Kaitlin Morrow’s puppetry of the dog was adorable
-The great revelation of Conor Bradbury’s character
Some highlights of my first play-through of Fallout 4. The inclusion of your companion’s input, and the drama of the main story was nothing short of spectacular. V.A.T.S. is always fun too.
Here’s the last of my screenshots of my first play-through of Fallout 4. I’m still playing this game. Love it…
I’ve wrapped up the main story in Fallout 4 for the first time, so here are some of my favourite shots along my journey. Please excuse the HUD display. No spoilers.
I didn’t want to buy a tree, but a friend of mine showed me that people have been making trees out of books.
I did my own take on that: comic books, DVDs, video games, with mostly Funko Pop figures as decorations.