I was going through my notes on my iPhone and found the only journal entry I made at the start of our 5-week tour through Canada/U.S.. I thought it interesting. Enjoy.
“April 12, 2013
“If you want an illustrious career in rock n’ roll, I suggest you think about it…” Greg Dean (on the KMFDM Beat By Beat Tour 1995).
I just want to say about that quote above: Our trip is most likely not as crazy as some bands’, but touring in a band is not like a road trip with your friends or family, and it’s not really like camping except for some things you bring with you. We don’t have a crew, and playing is merely 10% of our job. The rest is lugging/hooking up our gear, driving long hours (and battling the elements), being paranoid about security, taking extra care in maintaining our health, and eating not as wholesome as we’d like.
Day 1 of the Short Circuit Tour (excluding the Toronto show, cause we didn’t actually leave until the following Thursday)..
Drive was alright. Chals got one of those fancy “GoPro” cameras to document our journey. I swear they use those in the Canada’s Worst Driver tv-show.
Anyways, the 8-hr drive seemed short. The quaint size of Sault Ste. Marie reminded me of certain areas of Regina, and Moose Jaw, SK. It’s bigger than I thought, since the last time we travelled through (at night) back in late-fall 2009.
We get to the venue ’round 5:45pm and eventually meet the promoter. Nice guy. Fed us, bought us drinks. As the night rolls along after soundcheck and we’re playing the “hurry up and wait” game, I’m starting to get super tired. I’ve been up since 4:30am and by 11pm I was ready to crash. I was given an energy drink and after finally playing I gained a second wind.
A nice couple invited us to their house to sleep and shower. I had especially taken advantage of the shower.
Unfortunately the crazy snow storm from southern Ontario had caught up with us, and the next morning had us a little weary. On our way out of the city, a snowy steep hill stopping us from progressing as we halted half way up, and causing us to “jack-knife” the trailer trying to back up DOWN the hill. Chals warned on-coming traffic, as us dudes pushed the fully packed heavy trailer SIDEWAYS to get straight, disconnect from the van, then swing around to aim down the hill, then painstakingly re-attach to the van without getting run over by our own trailer.
After finding an alternate route, we hit up Timmy’s and fill up on gas. Then it’s continuing on the seemingly perilous mid-April winter journey to Thunder Bay.
I hope there’s enough lightning in Thunder Bay to zap this snow into hell.”
Here’s an update my attitude post-The Rabid Whole. I felt compelled to do this one since I was thinking about how sour I sounded at the end of the Part 3 of 3 of Being In A Rock Band video.
More footage of Tearaway Unfolded.
The track “Options” made by myself. Just a ditty I made ages ago, that I don’t see being anything more than it is already.
The 1 hour finale of my story of being in The Rabid Whole.
I talk about the period of about June 2013 to the end of 2014, and my thoughts on the end, and what I think we did wrong.
I realized that I hadn’t explained why I’ve been getting my leg infections. I’d been through radiation tests, tons of blood work, and samples of the swelling pus that would appear from my leg, and nothing came up that was wrong. My doctor said if there is nothing it’s “idiopathic”. To me it’s the physical manifest of stress, and unhappiness. Thankfully I hadn’t had an outbreak since about July 2015.
Song: “Bound To Get Worse” by The Rabid Whole from the EP “PROBLEMS”
Footage me playing “Rise Of The Tomb Raider” for PS4.
Photo of my reflection from my adventure hat taken early 2012 on our way to SXSW when we stopped at a hotel, and everyone with us decided to go out for supper, and I stayed behind to be alone.
Here’s my statement about The Rabid Whole I did back in early 2015: https://radutron.com/2015/06/08/i-gotta-tell-ya-folks/
This is a long one so you might want to get some snacks…
In this second part, I’m recalling my time in The Rabid Whole from end of 2010 to mid-2013. Things got pretty serious.
The song “Metro” from The Rabid Whole’s second album REFUGE is posted at the end of the video.
The live still after the game footage is from a gopro taped to my guitar during a show in Dallas, TX, back in 2013, touring with Dope Stars Inc.
Enjoy my terrible playing of Pinball Quest for NES.
Yes, it’s an emulator. I own the cartridge. I don’t have the means to capture my retro consoles.
My “Stuttering and Stammering” videos continue with me talking about my first few years in The Rabid Whole and its key moments of our progress as a band. The first of 3 videos. Enjoy some NES goodness from Power Blade, and there’s our first track we ever wrote called “Selfish Nature” at the end of the video.
Once upon a time my brother was a huge fan of KoRn, and consumed everything they were associated with. This included your album Commencement after listening to the Family Values Tour cd. I heard every frequency of your album at the opposite end of the house that slowly got me hooked.
As I listened to Commencement I found myself using the adolescent years of the internet to get to know who Deadsy was (interviews, Deadsy Legion forum, etc.) and anticipating when the next album would be finished. I remember listening to clips leaked through Kazaa/Morpheus, and one stood out to me: “Dreamcrusher”. I still remember half of the lyrics to the clip despite not hearing it for many years:
“Oh, the misty highs we climb/A search through fear-the skies/These sudden facts can make you hollow.
When checked this life derived from barren scapes behind/where we supposedly hide/In a place to waste/A place to wallow…”
In 12th grade, I wrote a play for English class called “Dreamcrusher”, as a final assignment. It was crappy.
Eventually Phantasmagore was officially announced and I pre-ordered the album online with the promise I’d get a signed copy. I got my copy with an apology letter saying that additional signed album inserts would be mailed at a later date (and they were!).
Then I never heard anything from you guys again. I would catch “Razor Love” (I think) on some stupid MTV show at the end credits, which to me was an obscure find if someone was listening close enough.
Years pass, and I slowly but surely shake my teenage obsessions. Now being interested in music from before my time, I’ve found familiarity of your music in artists like Tom Petty, and Gary Numan. I’m now 31, and after getting into a different (positive) mind set in my life (one of philosophy, some spirituality, and maybe some revelations of what life is), I was drawn to listen to Commencement whole again.
This album still holds up, and captures my imagination. Call me crazy but I can hear the colours you guys played on that album. “Mansion World”, and “Seagulls” are my top choices on that album, especially the latter.
Thanks for your music, and I hope that everyone has found happiness in their future years.
I am legion.