Here’s an update my attitude post-The Rabid Whole. I felt compelled to do this one since I was thinking about how sour I sounded at the end of the Part 3 of 3 of Being In A Rock Band video.
More footage of Tearaway Unfolded.
The track “Options” made by myself. Just a ditty I made ages ago, that I don’t see being anything more than it is already.
The 1 hour finale of my story of being in The Rabid Whole.
I talk about the period of about June 2013 to the end of 2014, and my thoughts on the end, and what I think we did wrong.
I realized that I hadn’t explained why I’ve been getting my leg infections. I’d been through radiation tests, tons of blood work, and samples of the swelling pus that would appear from my leg, and nothing came up that was wrong. My doctor said if there is nothing it’s “idiopathic”. To me it’s the physical manifest of stress, and unhappiness. Thankfully I hadn’t had an outbreak since about July 2015.
Song: “Bound To Get Worse” by The Rabid Whole from the EP “PROBLEMS”
Footage me playing “Rise Of The Tomb Raider” for PS4.
Photo of my reflection from my adventure hat taken early 2012 on our way to SXSW when we stopped at a hotel, and everyone with us decided to go out for supper, and I stayed behind to be alone.
Here’s my statement about The Rabid Whole I did back in early 2015: https://radutron.com/2015/06/08/i-gotta-tell-ya-folks/
I can’t pretend anymore.
Due to the messages, and comments I’ve been getting about The Rabid Whole either playing shows or doing things in Toronto or beyond, I have to say that TRW is currently defunct.
Since it’s ultimately Andreas’ baby, it’s his choice to continue or not.
You can probably guess why. Being in a band is expensive, and being in an ambitious band like TRW can be very expensive. I’m not here to whine, but there’s a line you eventually have to draw when things aren’t working out the way one would expect.
As for myself, I’m still in Toronto with my lovely woman, and shall be spending the next year or two paying off the debt I’ve accumulated during the last 4 years in TRW.
If TRW does continue, it shall do it with out me.
Do not take that last sentence as if I have any regret being in the band for the last 9.5 years (fun fact: “Selfish Nature” was written in 2005). There once was a time when I was happy, and somewhere along the line that happiness turned into emotionally withdrawn towards my bandmates, personality clashes, and absolute anger during certain conversations.
I’m nothing but thankful for the experiences I’ve had. The tours with Dope Stars, Bile, and Cyanotic in the U.S./Canada; attending two Cold Waves festivals, and performing in one; opening for Hanzel Und Gretyl in Edmonton; Playing with 16Volt at a couple of shows; and meeting/touring with Left Spine Down (which kickstarted the association with industrial music TRW would have). Being a fan of KMFDM since 1995, and getting right into the whole genre since high school, to then achieving the above listed, is such a great feeling.
I also can’t forget the many floors, couches, and sometimes beds I’d be able to sleep on, and the meals cooked for us, thanks to the hospitality of people we’d meet! You know who you are. If there’s hope for the human race, as a weary traveller, you’ll find it on the road!
I’m not finished with music as I have a need to create, and have a notebook that I’m filling up with ideas. I’m looking forward to recording music about “The Things I Like”.
I’ll end this with a quote I saw in a newspaper about Craig Ferguson leaving The Late Late Show…
Here’s to the future.