I was going through my notes on my iPhone and found the only journal entry I made at the start of our 5-week tour through Canada/U.S.. I thought it interesting. Enjoy.
“April 12, 2013
“If you want an illustrious career in rock n’ roll, I suggest you think about it…” Greg Dean (on the KMFDM Beat By Beat Tour 1995).
I just want to say about that quote above: Our trip is most likely not as crazy as some bands’, but touring in a band is not like a road trip with your friends or family, and it’s not really like camping except for some things you bring with you. We don’t have a crew, and playing is merely 10% of our job. The rest is lugging/hooking up our gear, driving long hours (and battling the elements), being paranoid about security, taking extra care in maintaining our health, and eating not as wholesome as we’d like.
Day 1 of the Short Circuit Tour (excluding the Toronto show, cause we didn’t actually leave until the following Thursday)..
Drive was alright. Chals got one of those fancy “GoPro” cameras to document our journey. I swear they use those in the Canada’s Worst Driver tv-show.
Anyways, the 8-hr drive seemed short. The quaint size of Sault Ste. Marie reminded me of certain areas of Regina, and Moose Jaw, SK. It’s bigger than I thought, since the last time we travelled through (at night) back in late-fall 2009.
We get to the venue ’round 5:45pm and eventually meet the promoter. Nice guy. Fed us, bought us drinks. As the night rolls along after soundcheck and we’re playing the “hurry up and wait” game, I’m starting to get super tired. I’ve been up since 4:30am and by 11pm I was ready to crash. I was given an energy drink and after finally playing I gained a second wind.
A nice couple invited us to their house to sleep and shower. I had especially taken advantage of the shower.
Unfortunately the crazy snow storm from southern Ontario had caught up with us, and the next morning had us a little weary. On our way out of the city, a snowy steep hill stopping us from progressing as we halted half way up, and causing us to “jack-knife” the trailer trying to back up DOWN the hill. Chals warned on-coming traffic, as us dudes pushed the fully packed heavy trailer SIDEWAYS to get straight, disconnect from the van, then swing around to aim down the hill, then painstakingly re-attach to the van without getting run over by our own trailer.
After finding an alternate route, we hit up Timmy’s and fill up on gas. Then it’s continuing on the seemingly perilous mid-April winter journey to Thunder Bay.
I hope there’s enough lightning in Thunder Bay to zap this snow into hell.”
The 1 hour finale of my story of being in The Rabid Whole.
I talk about the period of about June 2013 to the end of 2014, and my thoughts on the end, and what I think we did wrong.
I realized that I hadn’t explained why I’ve been getting my leg infections. I’d been through radiation tests, tons of blood work, and samples of the swelling pus that would appear from my leg, and nothing came up that was wrong. My doctor said if there is nothing it’s “idiopathic”. To me it’s the physical manifest of stress, and unhappiness. Thankfully I hadn’t had an outbreak since about July 2015.
Song: “Bound To Get Worse” by The Rabid Whole from the EP “PROBLEMS”
Footage me playing “Rise Of The Tomb Raider” for PS4.
Photo of my reflection from my adventure hat taken early 2012 on our way to SXSW when we stopped at a hotel, and everyone with us decided to go out for supper, and I stayed behind to be alone.
Here’s my statement about The Rabid Whole I did back in early 2015: https://radutron.com/2015/06/08/i-gotta-tell-ya-folks/
My “Stuttering and Stammering” videos continue with me talking about my first few years in The Rabid Whole and its key moments of our progress as a band. The first of 3 videos. Enjoy some NES goodness from Power Blade, and there’s our first track we ever wrote called “Selfish Nature” at the end of the video.
I can’t pretend anymore.
Due to the messages, and comments I’ve been getting about The Rabid Whole either playing shows or doing things in Toronto or beyond, I have to say that TRW is currently defunct.
Since it’s ultimately Andreas’ baby, it’s his choice to continue or not.
You can probably guess why. Being in a band is expensive, and being in an ambitious band like TRW can be very expensive. I’m not here to whine, but there’s a line you eventually have to draw when things aren’t working out the way one would expect.
As for myself, I’m still in Toronto with my lovely woman, and shall be spending the next year or two paying off the debt I’ve accumulated during the last 4 years in TRW.
If TRW does continue, it shall do it with out me.
Do not take that last sentence as if I have any regret being in the band for the last 9.5 years (fun fact: “Selfish Nature” was written in 2005). There once was a time when I was happy, and somewhere along the line that happiness turned into emotionally withdrawn towards my bandmates, personality clashes, and absolute anger during certain conversations.
I’m nothing but thankful for the experiences I’ve had. The tours with Dope Stars, Bile, and Cyanotic in the U.S./Canada; attending two Cold Waves festivals, and performing in one; opening for Hanzel Und Gretyl in Edmonton; Playing with 16Volt at a couple of shows; and meeting/touring with Left Spine Down (which kickstarted the association with industrial music TRW would have). Being a fan of KMFDM since 1995, and getting right into the whole genre since high school, to then achieving the above listed, is such a great feeling.
I also can’t forget the many floors, couches, and sometimes beds I’d be able to sleep on, and the meals cooked for us, thanks to the hospitality of people we’d meet! You know who you are. If there’s hope for the human race, as a weary traveller, you’ll find it on the road!
I’m not finished with music as I have a need to create, and have a notebook that I’m filling up with ideas. I’m looking forward to recording music about “The Things I Like”.
I’ll end this with a quote I saw in a newspaper about Craig Ferguson leaving The Late Late Show…
Here’s to the future.
These pictures were taken during the first leg of the “Built To Fuck, Born To Tour”, ending at COLD WAVES II. The Rabid Whole providing direct support for BILE, back in September 2013. It was a very memorable time, especially in Chicago. I got to meet some new people, and get some of my friends in on this. I thought I’d post these on here instead on leaving them on facebook, hoping they’d reach a wider audience. -G