I can’t pretend anymore.
Due to the messages, and comments I’ve been getting about The Rabid Whole either playing shows or doing things in Toronto or beyond, I have to say that TRW is currently defunct.
Since it’s ultimately Andreas’ baby, it’s his choice to continue or not.
You can probably guess why. Being in a band is expensive, and being in an ambitious band like TRW can be very expensive. I’m not here to whine, but there’s a line you eventually have to draw when things aren’t working out the way one would expect.
As for myself, I’m still in Toronto with my lovely woman, and shall be spending the next year or two paying off the debt I’ve accumulated during the last 4 years in TRW.
If TRW does continue, it shall do it with out me.
Do not take that last sentence as if I have any regret being in the band for the last 9.5 years (fun fact: “Selfish Nature” was written in 2005). There once was a time when I was happy, and somewhere along the line that happiness turned into emotionally withdrawn towards my bandmates, personality clashes, and absolute anger during certain conversations.
I’m nothing but thankful for the experiences I’ve had. The tours with Dope Stars, Bile, and Cyanotic in the U.S./Canada; attending two Cold Waves festivals, and performing in one; opening for Hanzel Und Gretyl in Edmonton; Playing with 16Volt at a couple of shows; and meeting/touring with Left Spine Down (which kickstarted the association with industrial music TRW would have). Being a fan of KMFDM since 1995, and getting right into the whole genre since high school, to then achieving the above listed, is such a great feeling.
I also can’t forget the many floors, couches, and sometimes beds I’d be able to sleep on, and the meals cooked for us, thanks to the hospitality of people we’d meet! You know who you are. If there’s hope for the human race, as a weary traveller, you’ll find it on the road!
I’m not finished with music as I have a need to create, and have a notebook that I’m filling up with ideas. I’m looking forward to recording music about “The Things I Like”.
I’ll end this with a quote I saw in a newspaper about Craig Ferguson leaving The Late Late Show…
Here’s to the future.
…I can always tell that a narrator will say something like that when a movie opens showing some vast/ancient civilization. DERP!
Like the new look of my blog?
I hate that I haven’t been doing my daily thoughts, or weekly bathroom pics anymore. The truth is my house was broken into back in August while being a groomsman for my friend’s wedding, and although I had brought my laptop with me, I left everything else at home. Thankfully my musical equipment was safe, but my hard-drives, and even my back-up hard-drives were stolen! Along with my TV, PS3, and games, etc… The video games are replaceable, but the 7 years+ of everything I’ve ever done for school, my band, and even my own personal shit, was gone.
Needless to say I’ve started from scratch again. If it ain’t hackers online, then its real-life thieves you gotta worry about. Yeesh……
Anyways, I’ve put it behind me, but sometimes the mere thought of it just grinds my gears. Now I’m wondering what to do with this blog. I really really like the idea that this blog is mine (RADUTRON.COM! NO ONE HAS THIS!), and is my own website separate from any social network, and my own place to display my thoughts in such a way that I see fit.
Anyone who knows me, knows I like video games, so maybe I’ll babble on about my favourite games? I’m not sure. It’s not so great discussing it without someone else. The comments section in any gaming website is akin to youtube comments: trolling; racism; the spellchecker; and 12 yr-olds who could be all-of-the-above.
In the music front, aside from The Rabid Whole, I’ve been doing “guitar a cappella”, and beat-boxing beats into the voice recorder for these crazy low tempo songs I got ideas for. Even my dinky little synths on my iPhone have been a great help in realizing some of these tunes. This first guitar-driven track I came up with is definitely a step in the right direction, and I already see it as “track 1” in a short collection of songs. In time people will know what I mean.
This year is very exciting. New things are coming.